Does birth order really matter? If so, then I may have screwed up my kids. My first husband and I had two sons. Josh is my first born and, with a five-year difference, Sal is my last born.
I remarried when Josh was 10 and Sal was 5. Josh became the second to the youngest of our combined 5 children. Sal remained the last born. Josh’s father remarried twice and added 4 more sons to his family lineage. Josh remains his first born, but Sal is no longer his last born. If birth order matters, maybe they were old enough to have their birth positions mentally established in their psyche?
Steve, my second and forever husband, brought three children to our family. Melissa was his first born and remains the first born. David was the middle child but was bumped up to second to the oldest among our five combined children. Justin, Steve’s last born, became the middle child. Justin immediately embraced the role of big brother to Josh and Sal. Josh would have none of it and hence there was fighting, fist fighting, from the first week of our wedded bliss. Steve and I negotiated a truce and a demarcation zone between them which ended with Josh’s eventual acceptance of Justin around his sophomore year of high school. I don’t think Josh would ever describe himself as “younger brother”, but he acknowledges and loves Melissa, David, and Justin. I call that family, no matter the birth order.
Sal is the one with significant dual roles. He is the last born on my side, but he is sometimes more first born (but not) on his Dad’s side. When the first of the next 4 boys was born, Sal was 10 and Josh was in high school and not around very much. When the first of the next 3 boys was born, Josh was 20 and no longer living with me or his Dad. Sal is the big brother those boys know the most.
As for me, I am the last born with three older siblings. I loved being the youngest and I still love being the youngest because my family always made me feel loved and accepted. I recognize that as a gift many people don’t have. Of course, I have felt rejection, not worthy of love or not wanted, but this was not from my family. Of course, we have hurt each other’s feelings or had moments of meanness or jealousy, but I still knew I was loved, and they would protect me as best they could.
No matter their birth order, I hope all my children, all five of them, feel loved and secure within our family.
All for now with all my love,
Ellen